Dane,Dad, and other things and people

So I guess i got over Nicolas. I have a boyfriend now named Dane. Dane is funny,sweet, and brings back my old self. I have been pretty sad lately and I know it sounds stupid but when I see him I know that everything will be alright. Anyway enough about Dane. So lately I have been pretty sad because I have been missing my real home. Home for me is a place that brings happiness and it is also a loving place, lately i have found that this home is not as loving as I thought before. It is now a place where I am barely on speaking terms with my mom and need to call my dad. I never want this to happen to a person that I love. It is hard,painful,and a person can spend days crying about it. I miss home and mostly my friends there. I saddely must go cause my mom just got home to yell so ya ttyl!!!!!!!!

HI O and I Think Im In Love

Hi guys!!! I am happy and sad at the same time but ill get to that in a minuet. I am going to see my grandma today actually very soon. I am excited because we will go shopping like crazy fools and all for me...YAY!!!!!!! So now to tell you about my love. I am crushing hard over a boy I met in Switzerland. He is Dave's cousin and he is beautiful!!! He is blond with blue eyes(like Dave) and he told me he likes me!!!!!!! The only issue is that he just turned 16 and I am 12. :( He told me when I was there that he would totally go out with me it is just that he is too old for me. :( I don't know why I like him SO much... but I do!!! He is sweet, loving, caring, beautiful, and a amazing person!!!!!!!! Poor me I didn't think that I was supposed to have a summer love until I am older. :( I like him so much I have been coloring pictures that have his name on them and everything!!!! Well I better get going to get ready to see my Grandma. TTYL!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why

HI guys. I have a story to tell you. I have been having dreams about Alex a lot lately and my most recent one I want to tell you about. Alex and I were on the side of Walmart near the parking lot. We had been fighting and I started felling sad, angry, irritated, devastated, hurt, ruined, and unloved. I ran away from him because his girlfriend Mariah was there and I was mad at him for going out with her and I needed to leave. Soon after I left Alex came running after me and turned me around and started to hug me. We were hugging for the longest time. Suddenly I remembered that Mariah was just around the coroner and I reminded him about it. He said it didn't matter and hugged me even tighter. I guess my question is why am I having these weird dreams about him I already know I miss him my brain doesn't need to tell me that. I think sometime this week I am going to go see him.

Camping

I am so excited!!! Tomorrow I get to camping for the weekend with my cousins. After that I am going to stay with my dad for the week. I am going to camp in Lake Shasta and my aunt and uncle have a ski boat so we are going to water ski and go tubing!!! One of my cousins is my age but her birthday is in October. She had asked her mom if I could sleep in her tent which was cool. I cannot wait!!!!!!!! When I am with my dad I get to go see the final Harry Potter in I-max 3D. When I go to see my dad I also get to see my papa Edgar!!! Well I better head off I will write tomorrow before I leave so ya bye guys!!!

Fun Today

Today I had a super fun day. I hiked to a lake called Secret Lake. I had a yon of fun. Then on our way back down the mountain we stopped at a little river that was freezing because it was melted snow!!! The funny thing is is that I wouldn't go swimming in the warm lake but I went swimming in the freezing ice water!!!!! Well that's all for today ill talk to you guys soon!!!!!

Alex

I know this is a little late but I wanted to talk about my last day of school. I was the saddest during PE when I realized I had to say goodbye to the person that I never wanted to say goodbye to...Alex. My friends all were telling me I had to say goodbye eventually so why not do it at this time. I got so sad and I never officially said goodbye. I went over to talk to him because he was alone. As I walked up his girlfriend Mariah walked up and started kissing him. I wasn't in the mood to teal with her and that (mostly because my heart was in a hundred pieces) so I left. All my friends asked how it went and I told them that I didn't do it I told them that I didn't want to deal with Mariah. My two pretty good friends walked me over to them a little later and tyred to get me to say goodbye but I couldn't even look at Alex because I refuse to let him see me cry. I told them I wanted to leave so being my friends we left. While I was talking to one of my friends another one of my friends went up to Alex and told him I wanted to talk to him alone. Being who he is he walked right over and tyred to talk to me but I just left. Then the last bell of the year rang and I never got to talk to him again. My point is that people that you love or like never forget to day goodbye even if they don't know that you exist. Because I will stay with you forever.

Amara

Today I am going to hang out with my cousin Amara. I have know clue what we are going to do but I am going to. Well thats about it. Ttyl!!!!!!!

Camping

I just got done camping with my three cousins (William age 2, Ian 8 months, and Amara age 21) I also camped with my mom, uncle mack, aunt Carmen, and dog Mia. I had a good time but I do miss being in the city. We stayed on the marine base and the next morning(today) my uncle, my mom, and my cousin Amara went woodcutting. We had the most weird food and no toilets. Well that's it for now talk to you tomorrow! Bye!!!

Idk

There a lot of things that I miss about back home. I miss my friends, I miss the other side of my family, I miss my dad, I miss my gymnastics coaches, out of all of these things that I miss most of all I miss my old self. I miss daydreaming about going out with the "love of my life". I sometimes don't truly understand all that I miss but I do know for a fact that I do truly miss my old life and I am not so sure I am ready to move on and start my new one. Things will never be the same...EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

School Drama

I'm probably gonna get in trouble tomorrow at school..... great. I hate my school and I just want to get through the year I am stressed as it is and I dot need school to contribute to that. A girl told the school councilor that I I had been " calling her names" I put that in parenthesis because I never did that and I now wish her dead... well not really but I am angry. I have decided that i need to just stop talking to people and go through the rest of my school year. I am now prepared to get into a HUGE amount of trouble and well I don't know if I am ready for it. On a good note I got a new phone so my new number i will post on here later sometime I lost all my old numbers. I want to sleep before I get in trouble tomorrow so I'm going to go to bed.

Yay

I hate it when it is all sunny outside but cold it stinks. My birthday is next week... I cant wait!!!!! I was gonna have a HUGE party, but saddley my mom shut the whole thing down. The whole reason my mom shut the whole birthday thing down is because I had asked for help when I was trying to pick out invitations and my mom asked if I wanted a big party and I said "yes" and she got all mad. I dont know why she got so mad I have been talking about this party for weeks now. Enough about this it makes me depressed. I had a lot of fun yesterday, I got to watch my boyfriend play baseball! He won!!!!!! Dave just woke up so I think i'll go talk to him see ya!!!

Finnally

Thank goodness we finally have some good weather!!!!!!!!!! Lately I have just been chilling but ya so I have to go ttyl!!!

Hangin

So my school is now completely flooded, water EVERYWHERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am just hangin out with Lynsey and Fil. So yah ttyl

Scared

Stuff is happening without me knowing . I don't even know what that means but yeah. Two of my friends were fighting over me and today i was just done with it. My one friend was saying that I shouldn't be friends with the other one, but the other friend never said anything bad about anyone. I told the backstabbing one that i was done being her friend. She got mad and told me to stop talking to her which in my opinion was rely stupid because i didn't want to talk to her anymore so yeah. I had nothing better to talk about sorry. Kara I have to tell you something at gymnastics on Friday. I hope to talk to both of you soon. Love ya Philip and Kara!

Valentine's Day

Hi guys so first things first Happy Valentine's Day!!! Today I had a short day at school so yah. I have been very tired lately like for example last night I went to bed at 7:30!!!! Ya nothing new has happened at school today just the usual. Well better get going I have a lot of homework.

Hi

Hi today is very boring all of my friends are doing something it sucks. I have been thinking about my boyfriend all day .

Sad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today I found out that my biggest admirer in gymnastics has a broken back. She is soooo upset and cant believe it gymnastics will never be the same without her.

Phone

Well I got a "new" phone it is a phone that has been sitting around in my house but it works. I cant rely text with it but tomorrow i should be getting one with a key board. Well I have decided to do this thing late because well...it is the only time I have time I have to go bye.

I Cannot Believe It!!!!!

Today was a sad day at school, a girl stole my phone and I have no phone now! My friend Kara and I have decided that I am going to go her school. Remember that this only a plan for my friend and I but I am getting very excited. Well better get going it is super late again. Bye ttyl nn brb

Hello Again

Hi the reason i haven't been on is because i forgot my password but whatever. I have been doing good life is going OK almost, my cousin Amara left for Italy in January for six months. It has been very hard but I am working on being OK without her. I rely don't have much to write and I must go to bed so good night!